11.48pm





down here alone smoking and typing my blog..

its since a very long time i last wrote my blog...

haix.. alot of things have being happening..

where shld i start it..



ever since i ended my relationship with koon my feelings for him nv faded although we aint together animore.. i think of him during the day and the most unbearable part of the night..

having alot of sleepless nights..but he didnt noe how i felt all along..

thru out all the past 2mths of our break-up louis was there to guide me n console me..

till he went overseas but without fail he stil msg me n called me up sometime regardless of his expensive overseas call n messages..i noe he've being carrying a torch towards me for quite some time but during his overseas trip i get to know another guy thru friendster which is vincent..we did click when we chatted over the phone,till we went out n he confessed his feelings for me..i was shocked really shocked,everything happens too fast. i rejected him as i wasnt able to get over my previous relationship and moreover i'm afraid of being hurt again.. i'm reali nt ready for another relationship..never did i expected him to do such a thing as to walk into the sea to relax himself..i was real damn angry n pissed off,tats nt the way to show n prove ur feelings for a gal? it juz irriatted me! i asked him to come back he ignored me.but he still came onshore after awhile..he beg me to be with him..he told me he reali cant leave without me n all those bullshit of him.he told me to leave him alone to relax,i say fine if u reali wan me to i shall juz walk away.there he say ok! and from ther i juz turn my back n walk away,after walking a distance i turn my head to see him inside the sea again!!! WTF!!! UNLESS GUY!!! i carry on wif my walking heading towards his car den i heard heavy footsteps sound n loud panting from behind me..den he came to my front n knee down in front of east coast mac wherin thers so much ppl down ther staring at us!!! kaox!!! such a disgrace!! i was so damn angry!!!!!

i scolded him but he's such an shameless guy still dare to knee down in the middle of the road begging n crying wanting me to forgive him n give him a chance to love me?

WTF!!! at tat point of time i'm wondering is he real or juz insane?

*dun wana write le..

re-posted on 11th Dec 2007

23:34; secrets. Y