Wednesday, December 12, 2007
11.28pm
haix.. tink i 've done the wrong thing again..ytd i quarrel wif him erm or shld i sae i vent my anger at him den end up we're on cold war the whole of ytd..he called me once using his hse fone but i didnt pick up den when i called him back he didnt ans..i msg him but no reply..i blasted his fone but again no response..after lots of dialling..wondering wat is he doing.. shld b aslp.. but no ans to it..wat to do? i dun lik it leh.. is by calling once shows tat u care?den whole of today again he only called me once but i dint ans..i was unhapi..but tats is his way of doing thing..aiyah i noe lah he wld surly say "i',m wrking leh,u wan me to cal u how many times? its gd tat i called when i knock off ok!"
coz tis is nt the 1st time le.. haix..always my fault..nt answering his call is always wrong..in his dictionary i'm always wrong.. in wateva things i do..mayb he's rite i'm always wrong..feeling moody n i went out wif buddy..end up he called me i didnt pick up.. coz i noe wil quarrel for sure coz i went out without his permission..end up rejecting his call til he msg me saying "ok fine! u wanna break rite? so be it!"den i quickly call back we quarrel as usual i'm wrong for nt answering yet he say i was trying to hide thing WTF!!! so angry.. in his eyes i'm juz a gal who lik to go out wif guys and do all kind of things wif them.. tis is wat he always tink of me.. tat reali upset me..buddy was telling me y mek urself so miserable?u noe going back to him all tis things wil always occurs y stil mek urself suffers?i reali duno wat shld i do.. i cldnt control his life but all tat he cld is to control my life..we're juz back 2gather for 2 weeks n problems have being popping out..i'm trying nt to restrict him off anitin but y he hav to restrist me in things tat i do?i alrdy told him i wil restrict myself from them. all along i nv had a lot of friends.when i'm feeling down who is there to hear me out? although they may nt b there always but i need juz a listening ear buddy is always there.. even late in the nights.. thru out my break up wif him n quarrels buddy was ther to guide me.. to me he'll always b my best buddy..i reali dun understand y he hated my friends so much?he sae i care abt my friends more den i care abt him..i duno wat shld i sae? but i noe whenever i'm down or hapi the 1st one tat i wld wana share is him.. but when i'm down i noe he wldnt b ther juz to hear me sae..so end up i turn to buddy..but by doing so wil only irritates him.. am i wrong again? enuf abt him.. toking abt work..i'm in deep shit! cld only start wrk on mon! and some more its oly 4 to 5days weekly..n majority is ay marina.. sumore aunty wans me to sign contract,if wana resign gota give 2 weeks notice..or else no pay..how?intially my plan was to join moomoo den get hold of some money so tat i cld balance up wif those days tat i'm nt wrking but now its lik die for sure.. tmr going for interview at levis.. c hw's the outcum..haix.. NO MONEY!!!!!!!!
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PROFILE
LYNN
simply a girl who love being pampered n doted on..
always letting her imaginations go wild.. easy agitated by the smallest thing n delighted by the simplest thing..
clumsy and silly.. all she hav is "butter fingers" breaking and dropping things is her hobbies..
secondly,"itchy hands n mouth" are part of her too.. she's juz an useless dumb in the world waiting for her big day to fall..
