Tuesday, December 11, 2007
10.40amya its juz tat early..and i'm being irritated by tat bf of mine!!!pissed off leh!!!duno am i being too unresonable or nuisance instead?but i'm angry mah!!!i trusted him..ok i'm trying to build back the trust again..but he wasnt being truthful to me mah..kaox!!! i reported almost everything abt who called me n watsoeva to him but he juz dun bother to tel me mah..i nv expect him to tel me everything lah,but at least abt her mah..he noe i'm sensitive abt her yet he stil chose nt to tel me coz he felt tat its nt important..ok fine den in future wateva of me i dun c a point into reporting to him..n he beta wash his hands off my things n i shall wash my hands off his too!!!wldnt tat b beta..shldnt he noe tat now is the time wherein we have to cooperate together so tat we can go far..nt lik last time animore.. hide tis hide tat,it wil only mek our relationship turn nasty..it wldnt helps mah,it wld only create misunderstanding..kaox! come to tink abt it i felt tat i'm being so silly..i tried to befriend wif her so tat at least i wun feel so uneasy in a sense tat she's oso my fren..so tat he can stil contact her i dun draw a line between them like before..n he wun felt so restricted mah.. although he have done alot of things tat upset me lik knowing girls thru irc n those chatrms,after all i stil forgive him.. although i cant reali forget abt it yet lah.. it takes time mah.. i stil allows him to use irc as long he noe wat is he doing n he wun do the same ting again i'm alrite.. he can chat but nth more den it lah..am i stil restricting him? i'm alrdy trying nt to mek him feel so stress up being wif me le..i'm reali trying my best..but today i burst off le.. sorie my dear,but i reali dun lik it mah.. i wan u to b honest wif me n i wil b honest wif u too.. cant we get thing done? i dun wan quarrel.. but today i blew my tops on u.. damn it! always lik tat his fault end up became my fault..juz now when i'm on my way walking hm suddenly tis thing came across my mind..i was tinking after all this rounds n turns we're stil together r we reali meant for each other or are we juz 2 stubborn heads trying to b together?ya last nite i overheard my mami told papa tat thers one fortunate teller who told her tat if one of daughter wil to get married n buy a car they wil earn some fortunate from the car.. lik arstrikce 4d when u buy its car plate number.. lolx..coz we did actualli intend to get married oh no its ROM onli during nxt yr or so if we're stable enough,hopefully by then he have alrdy started his businesse n brought a car if affordable..so the ans remain unknown.. mayb it cld b my sis..?deardear..
loving you is hard..
having to leave you is even harder..
but living without you is miserable...
10:38; secrets.
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PROFILE
LYNN
simply a girl who love being pampered n doted on..
always letting her imaginations go wild.. easy agitated by the smallest thing n delighted by the simplest thing..
clumsy and silly.. all she hav is "butter fingers" breaking and dropping things is her hobbies..
secondly,"itchy hands n mouth" are part of her too.. she's juz an useless dumb in the world waiting for her big day to fall..
