Wednesday, August 29, 2007
3.13amfeeling moody..felt tat i have done the stupidest thing..like i what i have said our 2yr anniversary is cumin soon..so today i brought him a pair of levis jean n a top..but something bad happens when he's at work,he had one of his fone stolen at his counter end up he hav to pay 100bucks for the fone.they went to police station to mek police report wondering wat the outcome wil be,i didn't noe abt it when i brought it,he muz have tink tat i anihow spend money again le..he juz had to paid 100bucks n i juz spent another 1oo over bucks..think he muz angry wif me but he juz didnt voice out..i felt i'm so lousy..i cant even get the simplest thing rite.mayb i reali shldnt b up to all this stupid ideas..thinking of giving him surprises but i doubt i had.y am i always doing things which doesnt appeals to him?i'm his gf y cant i mek him hapi?although he's always wif me but i can seldom c him smile brightly..but toking abt his work place,he seems much more happier den compare wif me.i felt i'm so useless.cant even bring happiness to him.much less bring mek him feel "xin fu".thinking back of his reactions when he saw all those gifts,all he said was y u spent so much..i asked him to try on the jean but unfortunately he cant wear but luckily thers bigger size for tat.he commented tat the jean look so "Malaysian",haix.. again i cant even pick something nice which he wil like.i'm reali sad..i asked him to try on the top,ok he tried but tink he dun reali lik it.i told him thers another design but thers no size at the moment.wil exchange for him when the stock arrives.i thought i cld get a"thank u my dear",juz a thank u i'm contented.but think all my effort is juz nth to him..wil be going to exchange the jeans tis cumin Sunday.hopefully he wil get something tat suits him n he lik it.i went to check his daily record sales book den i rem oh its been a few days since i last copy his sales for him.i went to ask him for the details but he seems cant b bothered..juz ask me write total amount can le..and i'm wondering y am i doing things to help him but he's juz cant b interested to help the least.every sleepless night,i have being typing my blog saying how i feel inside..tears juz rolled down when i start to type this post..whenever i'm feeling down,tears wil fall lik rain drops onto the bed sheet quietly n dry up when i'm awake..no one wil noe i ever cried,no one wil noe hw i feel deep inside..the one whom i wish for to noe cant be there for me..standing here all alone..
03:11; secrets.
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PROFILE
LYNN
simply a girl who love being pampered n doted on..
always letting her imaginations go wild.. easy agitated by the smallest thing n delighted by the simplest thing..
clumsy and silly.. all she hav is "butter fingers" breaking and dropping things is her hobbies..
secondly,"itchy hands n mouth" are part of her too.. she's juz an useless dumb in the world waiting for her big day to fall..
